half

i'm half of a person.

half of a woman

half of a drawer

half of a musician

half of a writer
half of an environmentalist

half of a daughter

half of a friend


half of a lover

half of a waitress
half of a comedian

half of a student
half of a worker

way too much to make a unity.

the situation improves by itself.

this year, I mean, last year (the one that is about to end) was strange. all I have been doing was to go with the flow, which is great until you realize that you wanted to go to somewhere else.

at that point, it takes a lot of effort to make a UTurn, so what happens to me is that I keep thinking: shall I waste all my energy to change my direction, or can't I just keep flowing easily without worries and see what happens?

at the end of the day, most of the time the situation improves by itself.

this city

this city brings bad luck.
it's awesome and sad.
grey and foggy but, most of all, wet.
just like my bike seat, always wet.
the stairs are slippery and the cats are entrapped in shops, restaurants and bars. and so am I, entrapped between these canals.
no true happiness around. not even the shade of it.
lots of money, lots of fake smiles, optical ilusions and toxic candies.
and all those nice writings on the walls are not enough to remind me why I'm living here.
simply not enough, not anymore.

this evening

I've been walking for the whole length of five Mogwai's album. it was hell of a walk. freezing and sad, no ideas showed up.

this morning

the train bumped against somebody.

what a funny way to talk about suicide

last week

a palestinian husband was condemned to 18 months of jail for having sex with an israelian woman, making her believe that he was jewish and single...

garuna eta gorputza

I'm not able to deal with this situation. I was going to rock the boat sooner than expected, but I have surprisingly stepped back and this morning I woke up devastated and defeated. I don't know if it's my mind or my body the one who's giving up.

the rest of the day can only get better.

not

not one of my best moments. agur madda!

everything changes, nothing changed

how can it possibly be? no hate, no rage, no fear, no gall around here.
I guess, no feelings at all... but I can still enjoy a good song appeared  from the past and dream about it.

looked like everything was going to change irreparably, but nothing changed and soon or later I will need to rock the boat.

nightmares

I may appear naive but I wasn't prepared to people's evil.

I have not filters at all and I hate that.

This make me think: how are we supposed to help this planet if we are its major problem? How are we supposed to help this planet if everything we do is mean and profit-oriented? How are we supposed to help this planet if we are not able to help ourselves?

Is it just a bad time for thinking or is it just bed time? I guess I probably need some sleep. It can't be of any good to wake up so early on a saturday morning.

an unquestionable truth

a person I met, a very interesting person indeed, told me this simple, unquestionable truth: you are not gonna leave until you really buy a ticket. which is not so obvious as it may appear and it's the reason why I'm still stuck in Europe. I haven't really bought any ticket to anywhere yet.

feeling abandonded

remember those factories from my previous post? 

I actually feel like one of them. 

I even have a specific one in my mind I relate myself to: a big grey building leaning against a filthy river, with huge broken windows and an high lonely brick chimney on its side.

do factories have certainties? because I don't, anymore.

talking about that

my previous post made me think about factories. I'm fascinated by old factories, the spooky image they have, the way they look abandoned and their ability to transform a city district in a ghost town.

it's the way you look at it...

by the way, everyone's characteristics should not be considered FLAWS IN THE FABRIC, but rather as an INTRINSIC QUALITY contributing to the uniqueness of the garment.

the key is to find a way to transform flaws in qualities...